
“Obviously we weren’t trying to go out in public,” she says.

They started talking again and spending time together, but privately. When she broke up with retired baseball star Alex Rodriguez, Ben reached out to her, as he had just broken up with actress Ana de Armas. All the while, she still had a thing for Ben, and this was well known amongst people closest to her. She did therapy, life coaching, meditation, and even psychotherapy to help herself overcome all of her mental barriers. And even from there, with all the willingness I had, it took years and years to really put the pieces together, like, Oh, this thing I do because of this, that thing I do because that happened to me at this age.” And finally I was just like, Ugh! It’s time to figure me out because I need to be good for these babies. Why am I never happy? I really felt that way for a long time. Those patterns become deep patterns that you carry with you, and then at a certain point you go, Wait, this doesn’t feel good. “You turn yourself into a pretzel for people and think that that’s a noble thing, to put yourself second," she says. Meanwhile, she also dove deep into herself and her blind spots. People fell in love with her because she was entirely herself-"Although it was a competition, it was a reality show"-and suddenly she was back in the spotlight. She had hit a low point in her career when she accepted the role of judge on American Idol, and it turned out to be one of the best things for her career. Jennifer says it wasn't really until 2011 when she started her journey of self-discovery that helped her get to where she is today. Ben married Jennifer Garner and they had three children together. Jennifer had twins with Marc Anthony, but was left a single mother when they were young. However, in the meantime, they both went on to further their own careers and start families. They parted ways in 2004 after a few years together, only to find themselves back together in 2021. “I became very guarded because I realized that they will fillet you. We were just living out loud, and it turned out to really bite us," she shares. It didn’t feel like we needed to hide from anybody or be real discreet. And we were just living our lives, being happy and out there. “We were so young and so in love at that time, really very carefree, with no kids, no attachments. Their relationship was also scrutinized heavily in the tabloids, which made things even harder, and that was partly because they were so open about their love from the start. Jennifer said her first go around with Ben Affleck was riddled with rough patches, sharing that there were "people not wanting us to be together" because they evidently weren't right for each other.

Jennifer Lopez Reveals What Brought Her Back To Ben Affleck But Jennifer opened up to Vogue about how she finally reunited with the one person she wants to spend the rest of her life with. She has been married four times and has had two engagements that were broken off (including with Ben the first time around). Even though she's done it all, she has always had trouble finding love. She has done everything from produce successful studio albums to star in hit movies to launch her own skincare line.

Jennifer Lopez, 53, is one of the most recognized faces on the planet.
